Lately, I have been so stressed and depressed with my life. I was so negative and anxious. I always thought that my working life was not going well with everything. One group of people at workplace acted so clearly that they dislike me and they have tried everything to ruin my mood at work. I felt like I was so useless when I was so free and nothing I could do beside sitting and watching my computer screen. I just don't feel right when I hold a master degree and what I can do is nothing!
Until one day, I was about to ask my boss to move to another department. I was so nervous and so hesitated to go and asked him. But then I decided to do it because I could not stand with my current situation anymore.
I knocked my boss office door and I told him about my intention. He looked at me and said : Well, you can move to another department as you wish but I would like to tell you about new organisation of your current department... In fact, he tried to explain me that he really values my work and he also know about my ability. He would love me to be patient and work with him since He need me to help him in some significant works. He just can not express his regard toward me obviously because he want to avoid the jealousy between his employee. He changed my thought that it was all wrong and I was just overthinking.
I realized that I focused on negative things so much more than positive thing. yes, I could not deny that I was disliked by a group of co-workers but looking on positive side, I was welcomed by other seniors. They give me advice and care and always be there when I need them. They give me value and always respect me. But overthinking make me blind and what I can see is only negativity. I could see only that this place is not belong to me.
What I have learnt from this lesson is that I should spend my energy more to good people around me, focus on the goodness and should not get affected by those negative people.
Be more grateful to all the good things you have in your life and going forward!
